G o o d morning!!

         Un-dead this morning

                       too

                  So …..!

      Still living 

                  No ……!

    There’s No door

Here

Lost

Reminisce which side

did

    you

         sleep

Did you sleep

       Where

Did You sleep

You

        Lost

        Forgetful

        Prisoner 

Forget about directions

Forget whats forgotten and get up

        Else you will misss

        Breakfast

Hey ! Hello ! 

Fast…!

Getup.!

Say ! Hello !

Say H E L L O to the new

GOOD MORNING

Else

you

will

be

Forgotten

Missed & left ravenous 

         Which

    Is not good

Be good

Do not be forgotten

Do not be missed

Do not be left

Be By

  Far good

Be amongst those

      Who

Are Good

                 In

                  Getting

                            In

The que

Like the extra o in good

                                 Prove yourself

Though 

      Proofs

Here

Provide no freedom

But Breakfast

           To the fast

M

O

V

I

G que

For here are only two

Ques of hungry prisoners 

           And the one

M o v e s quickly

Doesn’t include you

Neither

            In slower

            Are you today

    For you are not getting

                   Up/in

        Get up and get in

           Get in and see

     That there never will be

     Even a triffel of difference

                    Between

   The served    &    The server 

              Givers or takers

                Like there is

               No difference

                     Between

           And and Or Or or And

Be in between

And

Get served               breakfast

Get served

And

Provide services    for the breakfast

And 

When you are done

                           Run

For now there is only one

                          Que

       To take you

Back 

       To your cage where you

   Are

       To S E R V E

Incarcerated

Services

Are

To be

Provided

               By you

               For you

      Are to be provided

       B R E A K F A S T

                  And

A place to sleep and forget

       That you slumber   

In your cage with a number

                    Of

     Other cages for ages

And ages

                    And for ages 

Your cage is aging too

And before you even realise

It grows bigger with your size

In your marrow and your meat

With what ever you may eat

  There

      Are

Other cages too

     Let it be

          For cages

                        Even you can see

Are no different than each other

                                 You can see

But not your own

U N K N O W N P R I S O N er

                                         To err is

                                          Human

And ‘Tis a herculean task for a poet

                     To walk in ques

                              Ants

                     Do walk in ques

Industrious          Ants

On the command of

Moreindustrious Ants

Who can not be commanded

But by the one who knows

All the poets, ants and all

In

     The easts & the wests

     In

THE que

THE poets found it hard

To walk

           & slept

Left asleep in command

S o m e were just

                              Forgotten

S o were r e a d

                R e s t assured to define

S o defined the rest

& slept to forget t h e m s e l v e s

After forgetting  t h e f o r g o t t e n

All the poets, ants

And all the wests and easts

Are

In one EYE

Morphing I

I who know not

                     What I will

                     My will

Is not me

For I am not

In accordance to my will

Read by a reader

          Who is not me

          No, not you either

                    W E

          Are not to read

          Neither to be read

Poetry

          Is

             To

                 Read

              Or

          TO

        Be

Read

Then to be lost

Like my sense of directions

Right before I sleep

Just after I wake

Its hard to recount

Which way

The door is

And easy to assume

With ease I assume

All my beliefs

For the sake of this ease

                       I believe in serving

So shall I serve

Untill they learn

All

    About

               My

                   Services

Not all learnings

                     Require

                                 Teachings

Birds never tought us to fly

                                        Or die

We assumed we can

                  And     we      flew

Some like colors

Some like dust

Those who flew

Like dust lived

Those like colors

Lived more

I can not teach you to live more

For you

       Are already alive

In-assumed-fact

                      More alive

Than eye

That can not keep

Anything

Neither

Anything can be kept from the eye

In words read

Words revel :  what is kept by me

                           Often from me

        In me

You will to know

     Where it is kept

And you come

                To know

That all can never be known

But some

Reveled

By some

With open eyes or closed

Among

           Those who are sleeping

      Or Those who are walking

      Or Those who are sleeping while walking or

Walking while sleeping

As desired 

W H I L E 

You 

Are not being addressed

You are

                  Not to be

                                    Addressed

No one is addressed

Neither

            In the guise of monologue

The desire is

             Not to be 

One who adress desires

Nothing

Had to be

             De s I r e d

          You are never

                To be

            Addressed

        Against your will

        Will is yours

You

Who aren’t here by will

Cares not 

How careless of you to forget :

            Whens?

                    Wheres?

                            Hows?

                  Whos?

And find :

                    Whats?

                 Whens?

                      Wheres?

Who knows?

You choosy/ searcher you

Who don’t want to search anything 

   NOW

You take INFO? 

Or is it

          You informer you

Get up

You uninformed informer You

           Face new info

             And decide 

Whether you are 

Being informed

Or you are the informer

Although in both cases

It is compulsory to trust/ believe the information

Assume that you’ve believed

And

Prove :

Your belief

Can not surpass

Your limit

Of assumption.

If you are informed by yourself that your assumption

Has a limit

Dare cross it !

Afraid of crossing it?

Afraid of the fear

You

     Fearful

                 You

May determine limits by

Poetry

Reality

That your cigarette has bound you with the reality on

The other side of cigarette

Keeps you

            Uninformed

Of the fear

By the fear

Face that fear

           Keep doing it

Until you find

Something Worth doing

Don’t decide WORTH

Do not define WORTH

Let the decision happen gingerly

Dare denial

Than deny

Leftovers of Reality

Indecisive like your childhood child

Who fearfuly let the decision decide

And push the childhood

                        Into youth

The joy of this first

                        And last

                  Decisive Decision

Is

  What

           You

                Search

In every touch you toch

                    Yourself

Embrace yourself

Enjoy yourelf

Aim at the goal

Of this first decision

In every hole

anD geT losT

                      Lost

To the point

Where the point is lost

Feel yourself

In that lost point after losing

          Sense of senses

Slabber while seeing mirror

Dissolve in fragrance

Evolve

Evolving is surviving

Stability

If only is in variance

What is varaince

What is the point in varying 

I’m variance 

And I’m stable

             Before me ,

I was only me 

After me,

I evicted you from me

To we

In us

        In us there is

Neither me nor you

This mutual disappearance

Is named we

By someone who’s not us

We

    Short of

                 You and Me

     And why wouldn’t be short

     When never

                             Are you

                          E N O U G H

                          E N O U G H  

                                AM I

Or like the leftover

Of the breakfast

Served after

     The night of starvation

Left over me 

Left over you

Lost in

              O U R SOLITUDE

To survive devovering we

And not to die

Survival from the sorrow of our death is unthinkable

               Impossible

All that is unthinkable is impossible

Or even if it possible

Its not good to die

       Be good and sleep

       Sleep and die

In you bed & take birth in your

Dream

To the door

Que by que

From the door to the bed

To the dream

To THE WAKE

Oughtn’nt you be awake

To create poetry

To shave

You ought not shave

Those who ought to do

Do and are good at

          BOTH

Shaving anybody

                    Else is art

Those who shave anybody & themselves 

Sing, and dance, and tell stories

Every story has a

    SHE

Who reads it

Beside

Her W I N D O W

Thinks

It is ONE and not TWO

Reads

Listens

The voice

Continuously ringing in ears

Which can not

            Be

       Negated

On yellow page

In front of

Her E Y E

A toyman

With a basket of toys

Over

His H E A D

Between the lines

                              Passes

                      Surpassing limits

                            His basket 

Contains incomplete toys

His gait shows

           Completeness

Perhaps

           Toys are

     Of the same view

         Can it not be

          Understood

                 WHY

In

Incompleteness of write ups

Beside windows

Toymen are seen

Write ups of assumed names

Read often, all the same

Incomplete

Starts from mid

Ends in mid

Something tells 

               Its not Two

         Beneath Window

              Pondering

         Over the basket

          And the echo

                In head

Frozen

     She Decides

To reach toyman 

Through the path of echo

And is seen

Outside the window

       Following 

Away

        Going toyman

And when nothing was left

          In between

          Ice broke : 

“Twelve have passed before me”,

Said he, “I am the thirteenth”

“WE convey thirteen stories

To each one of you

And this is what we do

Twelve are 

Incomplete

Thirteenth

Is complete

But not always

Nothing is always

Always is

Nothing

From childhood

To old age ,

WE come often

In eve of childhood spring

In spring evening

When you are sure to catch

Butterfly you chase 

Or in winter night

When you are certain

No one’s seeing you

                           Inside

                          Blanket

Or in Autumn’s morning

When flowers are foud on pathways

Without effort

In Autumn’s nights

You are yourself on these paths

No one finds you 

But you are found

Till night

You got to know that 

You can be seen 

Inside blanket as well

Your evenings become long

         Or short

But you forget noons

Noons return in old age’s Summer

And sits on doorstep

Till evening

Till then 

You fold your blanket

Then comes

         Thirteenth weather

And WE 

Complete the story

And a story is always complete

The one that is incomplete is not a story

Uptil now

All written and read

Heard and said

Was a story

What you are reading

Is your story

And your story is what you read

What I read

Can not be your story

For if one starts 

         Reading the author

Listening the singer

         Touching the dancing girls

Watching the painter

                        Who watches back

                         From the blue

                                         Eyes

                                      Of the girl

                             On the broken deck

                                 Of the shipwreck

                                    In the ocean

                                  On the painting

                                          Hung

              On the wall of the art gallery

Where the picture

                          Of

           Shipwreck was placed

                 For exhibition

                      I serve

                The art gallery

                         Yet

             About paintings

     I have as much knowledge

       As a common man has

          About bull fighting

              Inspite of this

      I acknowledge myself

        As a fan of the artist

    Who painted the picture

                 At times, 

I want to pluck the blue

           From the eyes

              Of the girl

    Out from the canvas

    And through myself

            In the blue

         Such thoughts

     Are not appropriate

   For an ordinary servant

          But are good

For those spectators

                 Who

Regardless of the blue

Are busy in discussing

          The painting

      In the beginning

        While serving

          Tea to them

   I used to smile in a way

          Reflecting

    As if I have seen

The same in picture

That they have    seen

But now

            While picking empty tea cups

             I try

Not to look at the man

                           Standing

                   In front of the picture          

                           Posing

      To see something in the painting

                        Nor I try to listen

                          To the painter

                   And continue my work

“How about the doctors

What is

            Their opinion

              About him?

One

      Character

                     From the story

           Asked 

Another

In his most grey voice

This

      Very shade of grey

      Was used first

      When he was telling the girl

       About the birds

                                       Who saw

                           The pigeon in his hat

“They suggested

          To keep him engaged ,

                       Else

His mental health could go worst 

And the only engagement he has

                     Is the art gallery” replied

The blue eyed girl

                              In a voice

              That was not

As blue

That was the only answering shade  

                    She had

For those colorful inquiries

           About her husband

Over all those    (not so colorful)    

              Years

But not all inquiring colors

                                     Are

                                  Invited

                              In the room

                       Where she kept birds 

Only the man

Under the hat

Made his way

                        Here

With his grey voice

A whimsical

                    Charlatan

                                    He was

A Magician

Who from his childhood knew

                                       The bird

                             Is always in the hat

                     Thus

He had no childhood

And he was done

            With his youth too

            Like his step father 

                      He wishes to die

                       Before he gets old

                                      But he lived

                                             I

                                         From

                                      The gallery

           Get back home

Daily

      To make ship

With a newspaper

      To take it in the ocean

      To the shipwreck

      For the girl

                               But I know not 

                     How to paint

If I knew how to

    I wouldn’t have painted

                   Blue

Like the ever blue voice

                   Of my beloved wife

In the room

                 Where she kept birds

                 At first sight

                 She made me feeel

                                    The creator

Must have

  Made her

    Out of sunshine

        Taken centuries

          To carve those features

                      Till then

                     Uptil now 

         Life would have been eager

                     To meet her

                      Seeing her

              I lost my remaining

                   Four senses

                        As well

          Her ordour made me feel

                          As if

            The door to heavens

              Is opened to me

                 Touching her

Was gently placing fingers

                     On velvet

            Floating over water

          And when she spoke 

               I forgot both

             Music & Poetry

Sound didn’t add nectar in ears

                  But wine

Each word from her lips

           Had a unique flavor

I felt 

       Mythologically pleasant

                      As if

  Aphrodite came in front of me

        From Greek dev maala 

    But it became evident

      Shortly that this story

   Was not originated in Greek

            From Greece.

    The Aphrodite I saw

          Was a Dalelia 

Who killed mighty Sampson

       In the holy book

In the holy book

It wasn’t written

That dalelia.

Had any blue in her

Unfortunately

         I don’t remember

         The exact 

                               Name of my wife

                                        For me

                            Its an ordinary thing

                     Yet not that unimportant

As I used to think 

       When in beginning

                              I forgot where

     I put what

I do not remember

When it came

From things to faces

Now I forget

         How to link

     Names and faces

                           This doesn’t imply 

         I need to be treated

For

    I

    Can

           Give the faces

                 Names

Of my choice

      I’ve named the artist

Who has painted the girl in the window of a

Shipwreck

                          Moses 

And that deceiting magician        

                        Oedepsis

Whose Queen

Had eyes blue

“I doubt he knows”

       Said she

Taking her hair back

                    From his hand

                         The birds Protested 

“He only knows

          What he should know

Like the silver bird 

That you picked

From the pavement

Neither it has the need

                          Nor the ability

                          To know more

And its

        Tantamount to natural 

        Principles

So you

        Do not take it

        To your heart

Take it as you take

                        P O E M 

                             T

                             H

                             E birds

                          Protested

                             Again

                     As if they know

                            Poetry

                                 I

                             Know

Sampson

    Was killed

In the holy book 

     By Delilah

Knowing she

               Is ally with

             His murderers

      Tempted, deluded she

Those who are tempted

       Are not culprits

Tonight the new painting 

Was

     Tempting

         Its viewers

                    And those

                           Who were tempted

                                 Were as innocent

In the painting,

      The women,

                   In process of becoming

           Women 

In glass bottles 

                Were in a farseeing desert

       Far there

                A caravan

Throwing such more bottles

Was heading towards sun

And then each eye

         Saw

The women; 

          (still in process)

Were nude

    No    matters she has some blue

    So    who

                 Is

                    At fault?

I cannot held people

         Having blue as culprits

   Not everyone thinks like this

            That 

If from birds’ room 

         The sound of their flapping went to someone

Else room other than me,

          He 

              Would have cut

                                       Chop

                                            Pluk…..

                  But I’m not someone else

                         G O O D L U C K

Not

      Being

               Someone else

                        &

   Be the one they call me 

   Made

    The

POSSIBILITY                    that

            I was not called   this

                   In the past

PROBABLY

           People took advantage

          Of THE me who forget

                     N A M E s

They murdered

                       A me

            Without killing any me

So called

            Me differently

So I too

       Became

   Someone else

          As Aphrodite became Daleli

“ Leave the silver bird 

                             Picked

                   From the pavement

                                Who

          Had no need       nor the ability

                             To know

                              Instead

                  Look at the water falls

                            Or the water

                                That falls

                          And always falls

                 Never once

It goes upwards

              Smoke on the contrary

                     Never falls

Downwards

Westwards

                 Goes the sun

    And deathwards goes life

   Thus

It is best

To pave the way

             For all weary travellers

                      Who know

Not” 

He spoke

      As he put on his shirt

As one who knows

“ What if he learns” 

She asked…..the silver bird

          Who looked at him

As if waiting

          For his reply

And he replied

        “No one learnt till now

And this is what       I have learnt

                  In my childhood

                     From my late

                            Father

                        That no one

                       Should know

So he knew not

            Who paved his path

                       While he was fishing

Tell him

            To go fishing”

I

From fishing

      Get back home

                          Alone

                               We were three     when we were

Leaving

Home

On the way 

       I decided

To keep paintings

          In the birds room

                      NOW

The painting

          Which doesn’t have any

        Girl in the window of a ship

                       NOW

Windows without girls

         Are like

Planets without life

She

                     Was looking

                               D

                               O

                               W

                               N

                 From the planet

                             To a

                     D E A T H B E D

                     Near the ocean

                              She

                         Could look

                        At the ocean

                     From the window

                            But to her

           Looking at 

                           The life moving      

                                           Death ward 

Was better

So she peeps

                        Out from the window

           Down from the seventh seeing

           The woman

Putting extra wood

            In the fire

Murmuring : 

               “mother is already on death     

                 Bed, what if she dies?… In    

                 It is the ease”.

From seventh floor

          She heard murmurs

                         &

      Guessed about her desire

She could

                      See the sea

                   On the other side 

                            But felt

                         T’is  better

                            To see

                    Life cluttering around

                        The un-dead body

                                    On

                     The  death  bed  each morning…

Tantamount to seeing the mirror …was better than

Seeing the mirror while looking at the sea from the

Window.

There were

           Many desires

                  To be guessed

           Around the bed 

Desires knew not 

           That they were being guessed from a seventh

Floor

            Else

They would have told 

They are necessities

And not desires

From

         Such

                A h

                   E

                   I

                   G

                   H

                   T, it could only

                             Be

                        Guessed

                     That the man

                       Catch fish

( and that he could not catch them in a great number

)

While guessing this,

        It was time to go to school

                    And she goes         

                     Downstairs.

           Here it can be guessed

                 That about world

            She didn’t know much 

                             Y

                             E

                             T

   No one knows much about worlD

                             We

                 Don’t know much

Since when it is

Till when it will be…

       But it is …

             Like that bed

     About which she was only told that man

           On some charges

                 Was ousted

From some colony

           And he got settled

                    Around

                       The 

                       Bed 

She often thought :

     If he stopped selling fish , he’d be 

     In ease.

That much fish that was needed for food came itself

In the hook.

But treatment of mother’s illness was not in the fish’s

Stomach

So the fish

Had to be sold

Woman, considering mother as her enemy, 

Turned her enemy.

And man was afraid of taking a step for the second

Time

So he used to fight with both of them.

On returning from the school,

She saw that day woman was also on the death bed

And she looked more ill

           Than mother

     She guessed again

        People are right. 

The one who was allegedly desirous of someone’s

Death till morning was herself on deathbed in the

Evening.

She was in the same condition the next morning as

Well. 

Next six days and seven nights were spent in the

Same condition.

On seventh day

                 A hammock was seen

                     On the lower side 

                                 Of

                             The bed

                   The half undead

                                 Body

                                  On

                             The bed

Looked more lively

Man had been catching fish

                    And

Woman’s alleged desires

        Had increased

The rattling

   Of r

         A

           I

             N on window

Could not suppress the sound

            Of crying

                 Child

The light flashing

         On the other side

  Of the glass made it feel

             That something

             Of a great note

Is to be done

              And

Millions of cameras are

                   Capturing

            The scene in

She thought

                          Perhaps

  The dwellers came around the bed

          In one of such flashes

The child was constantly crying

The woman was awake

All of a sudden,

The rain stopped

Suddenly

Instantly

The child stopped

         Crying

And it was dawn

   Three days hence this incidence

              As she was watching

                  From the seventh floor

                          She saw

                       The woman

                  Was still adding

             Extra woods into the fire

The half alive body on the bed became more cold

And there was no hammock

While going

      Downstairs

           She thought

                  If it was necessary

                                    For an infant

                                         To take birth

Or for a person on death bed

                                                     To die 

Would that there be a sea wave

And takes everything along with it 

              In it is the ease

With the thought

             Of that ease

      Someone turned face

           From the sea

                        The one

Who turned face

Knew

The sea would spare

       The man that day too

But

Didn’t

Know

        How many fish

        Would have been caught

        In his hook

        That day

Thinking about the fish

        As she entered

        She cried loudly

The blanket she left

        While leaving

    The bed had a weak body

                    In it

    As if it had been part

               Of the bed

     “ How did you come here? “

Whether    the question     was not heard  or   the

Answer        was not understood,

The question was repeated

Till

      Answer didn’t come

“ O mother! How did you come      

                       Here? “

               “Like you came”

            And will go as you

                    Will

                    Without

       Listening to the answer,

    She saw there was no life

                In the rest of the body

                     Of the old lady

                       But her hair 

             Were golden and thick

Her hair

       Had been knitted

  With

      The bed’s leg in a way

      That it looked,

      The bed

       Had been woven from

      The old lady’s

       Hair

     She

Thoroughly observed

      That strange situation and  

     Shrieked

“ Why would I leave?

     This place belongs to me”

    “ Yes you are also right

      It is yours 

But THE going is also decided “ 

Yet  THE choice is yours

             Leave thinking

                About the

         PLACE or LEAVING

   I’m knitted with this bed

You consider you haven’t seen me      

                                          Previously

                                        Don’t worry

I’ll give you your share of the fish “

She

Catishly came

               From

             Beneath

             The bed

And started stroking it

“You in 

               Your senses old lady?

    You in

           My cottage.. On my bed …     

           From my husband’s fish…    

           Will give ME share? 

           Wait I’ll give you your share 

           I’ll pull you like the bone from     

           The fish” 

“ For this you have to be cruel”

Said the old lady, “..which you are not”

“to bear me, you have to be patient, you are not

Either it”

“ Let him…it is me who pitty on you but he won’t

He will screw you out of here on my wish “

On his return,

      His helplessness was disclosed

At dawn,

     Their presence made it clear

     That the share

     Of three would remain the same

Regardless of the giver

Man,

   After discovering

   The worthlessness of this debate

                                         Went fishing

The old lady

              Told him her medicine 

And woman

    While adding extra woods into the 

    Fire ,thought that by one way or    

    The other, a flame should go to 

    The bed from the door

    To save her share

She    kept    thinking

She    kept    laying

     On the bed 

Until the eye 

         On the hole

         Of the door

Got to know that she

                           Is sleeping

And then was seen on the other side of the hole

Here she was only seen 

                                In dark

                     But it was not always      

                                Like this 

                It was only two years ago    

                                 When

             Life was running in her veins 

                                 Faster 

             Than pre determined limit

                              Of her age

                And the resultant  crash                         

                       Made her paralyzed

Every night

   She on the wheel chair

             Of her body

      Dragged her crippled soul

             To the place

             Of the crash

      And while returning,

      Used to leave a part

      Of wheel chair there

She kept laying on the bed 

                  Until  

The eye in the hole

On the other side of the door

Got to know

                    That she’s sleeping

           Only then was she seen

      On the other side of the hole

                  Here she was

               Only seen in dark

                          But

       It was not always like this 

       It was only two years ago

  When life was flowing in her veins   

    Faster than pre determined limit

                     Of her age

    And the resultant  c

                                    R

                                    A

                                    S

                                    H made her      

                                    Paralyzed

Each night

    She on the wheel chair

                   O

                   F

            Her body

  Dragged her cripple soul

  To the place of the crash

           Returning

  Only                after

          LEAVING

                A

    Part of wheel chair

             There

She didn’t dare to breach

              T

              H

              E

              P

              R

              O

              M

               I

              S

              E

“can you promise?

      Each time

You’ll meet me you’ll

         Leave

    A part of you

    Of my choice “

          She

                Could

          Not

Belief her ears now

                          But neither he his

“ I Speak

      With a voice

That suppresses mine

   I Scream 

But the louder I scream

       The louder

                   Becomes the              

           Suppresser

          This melancholy

                 I do not wish

It is ethical kill

                                    In defense

Destruction is my only defense 

               It is not suicide.

            Will kill my murder” 

                  “ W H A T 

                     Do you

                Wish to prove

                Entangling me

                     In words” 

Afterwards There was silence      

           Inside the room

Curtains searched the wind

                And let it in

Tea on the table

                   Had become cold

Like the words

  Of the girl

Compelling the man

                           Placed

                       In front of her

                          More deaf

         Than the painting on his back

At times,

               It

      Makes me think

               It

  Wasn’t created by God

    But by Salvador Dali

And no that doesnot make Dali

                                               God

                  Neither

He being oppressive with his paintings makes him

                              God

If colours had the permission

              To talk like I do

     They would have been abusing    

                       Dali.

               And this makes

               The three of them

                   Oppressed

                    In my eyes:

                                       Him

                                       Dali who    

                                       Didn’t create     

                      Him and 

                      God

Who created Dali.

Don’t

  Feel 

   Sorry

    For

     The

      Oppressed

            Rather

       I feel angry.” 

“I want to make sense

Out of your words

I’m ready to come to you crossing this pain .

I accept all of your conditions.

I’ll come 

And in return of each meeting ,

Will give you a part

                       Of me 

                  As you’ll say.

                    The eye on the other side of the hole in

The door disappeared in dark seeing her     

                    Returning.

She layed back on her bed

                     Thinking

About the three meetings

          In the last two years.

                 She  was unable 

           To complement poems

                           And

                 The rest he said

           Was incomprehendible .

Tangled thoughts & twisted poems

            She had to save both

                   Herself & him

                            So

        According to the condition,       

                Cutting all her nails,

               She went to see him

                         A G A I N

   “ perhaps it is our last meeting “ 

The painting

       Placed on the wall,

The fan

Hanging from the ceiling,

The half lit cigarette

                In the ash tray

                            Spoke together

“ You always think like this

                        Think of every meeting         

                                  As last one

& it will become

As joyous

             As the first” 

“ Would that

I can think like this

          Think what I’m going to ask

                                                   For

                                The next meeting”

“I 

  Don’t

             Know

What I know

                       Is we’ll meet

                    Next time as well”

“ even If

You have to

          Sacrifice your eye

Cigarette pieces were scattered on the floor

               As if

They wanted to tell something

The crevices on the bed had been whispering

Books had been tired and slept

But the newspaper was insisting to tell the truth

             Fan consistently repeated

“He was a coward

He was a coward

He was a coward “ 

And the clock

       Was adding “ was “ to its “ was “ 

Has someone killed him? 

He was disliked and he should have been

But he had no enemies

No one hated him to the extent of killing him 

                   Table & chairs

                 Had been arguing

                  The entire room

      Had become a question mark

                           For

          The girl sitting on the chair

              And was looking at her

                       Like looking

                From the door’s hole

The fan was repeating the same

The girl tied her golden hair

Dried her eyes

Made the fan quite

Cigarette’s pieces were still now

Quietly looking at the ceiling

The bed’s crevices changed their place

                 And the newspaper

                        Was saying

         “ He Committed suicide

                     Under a bus”

                   The Holy Christ

                 Gave his life for us 

Who will give the rest? 

This is now a routine

Ticket ticket

Each day, someone was looted, especially along this

Way

Our forefathers also did this work

Yes work , work and work 

Ticket ticket

Look forward

Stop , hey stop

You lier! Pay the rest 

An infidel can never be friends with a Muslim

Get closer please

Stop

Hey Stop!  Or you intend to  take me   home?

Getting

                           D

                           O

                           W

                           N

                From the bus,

         I habitually checked

            The back pocket

                Of my jeans

              Abused myself

But I / he didn’t  get up  from my seat 

Perhaps I / he dropped the purse on the seat 

Perhaps I’ll get to know something from the terminal 

Last stop is nearby 

But even if found ,

                 Who will return it

Perhaps it’ll be returned 

It didn’t contain any money

With this hope , he sat on the back seat 

                  Ticket ticket 

Where 

Last stop 

Everyone’s going to the last stop

I was made attentive to the voice of the child sitting

Beside me 

As I saw, it was revealed , he isn’t a child but a short

Old man

Shortest I had ever seen 

Are there people who are so small

I thought 

         Payed the conductor 

And didn’t reply the small old man

What have you lost? 

The question made me surprised

Your eyes are the eyes

Of one who is looking

      For something 

Your eyes are like a man who is illiterate but is

Finding something in the picture of the word 

     I      have     lost    my      purse 

Was there something precious ? 

The jolt of the bus had more effect on the small

He pretended to  stare at the driver 

Though he couldn’t see

           Anything  above the next seat 

Yes very precious ….

It had everything I have 

It had me

Perhaps you’ll find you

On the last stop 

Usually everyone finds everything on the last stop 

But what you’d been doing in your purse? 

I don’t  remember 

And all I can’t remember

       Is kept

    In the purse

Like there were names 

Let me help you in finding your purse 

Get down 

The Search began once again 

The small old man said

        You’ve got tired

Stay here for a while 

Until then I’ll find the seat where you sat previously 

But how’ll you find that bus which has that seat ? 

You haven’t seen me / him getting down from it 

Only  heard 

And heard it from the one

Who got off that he has got off

The dwarf didn’t stop even after listening to him and

Went to find the bus

I he 

Waited for his return

                   Sitting on the bench

To sleep while waiting

          And to wake suddenly and     

                         Guessing

               Which way is the door

To guess the

Position before going     

                                 To sleep

                            Is an incidence

                        Of a part of a moment

                                    And those

                      Who have gone through 

                                    This incidence

                                See the short film       

                                              Of 

                               Death in their lives

It happens

                                          In beginning

Firstly 

        We can not believe

                 We are

                   Dead 

Slowly

          We get used to

                  Death

          We don’t adopt

         Or quit any habit

Neither

            Nor those

                           Who died prior to us

But one thing,

     We don’t think

Or care

Or assume

Or need to know

When did the first man died

      Neither we know its been ages 

                     Since then

We only know you are new here

                     As always

And so you are here as always

I’ve heard

                Or read

    Somewhere between 

               The lines

    But I can’t say it for sure 

Yet can say with certainty

Listening 

To the teller 

That I’ve seen him  

                                         Somewhere

But if I’m in my room,

Have I died along with my room?

I wanted to ask in the same strange language but he

Started talking     

                                            Again

Yes

You 

Died 

        Along

        With

        Your

        Room

If you’ll leave your room, 

You’ll see you are dead

Along with your home

And your home 

Is one among many

Deadhouses in the city 

Of which you are dead

In one

Getting this reply to the question I was about to ask I

Should have been amazed

And getting such a reply I should have been

Disturbed but I didn’t get amaze

And this too wasn’t amazing

But the question is

                When did I meet

            The one replying me

Do you know

One doesn’t see

Any unknown face

In one’s dream

If he feels,

He some strange face in the dream its his illusion

That is created after getting up

Otherwise,

During sleep,

One breaks old faces and makes      

                   New ones

Or takes the face from the crowd 

Which has passed 

Through one’s eyes

But one hasn’t 

                        Paid 

                   Attention

As you were watching me from the bank’s roof, 

                    I thought you were    

                           Coming

                       But you didn’t

                             I came

                To your world that day

Its something very happy for me    

                    But I’m not happy

                       Are you happy

        First you tell

Where did my room go ?

To heaven or  to hell? 

                        It

                        Is

       Where

                       It

                       Was

Your room is in        HELL

And also in                HEAVEN

Who cares

There’s nothing to worry about 

             You are dead

So be free

           From worries & care 

And if you don’t

Feel              free

You had been incarcerated  upon getting free 

                              You are not dead

                 What

                         The heaven

                 What

                         The hell

                  Well            Well

                  Good morning